Everything is ok.......kinda

I wish I could say that everything is ok, that I'm doing great but that is not the case. As some of you know I was planning on going to school to become a preschool/kindergarten teacher. That is part of the reason Savie and I have been going to school for the past month or so. It's great for her and it's great experience for me. I love being there and playing with the kids, even if they are having a bad day. But here's the problem. It was almost $500 for 2 classes. Yeah a minor heartache there for me. it's been years since I was in school so paying that much for 2 classes is a lot to me, that's almost what we pay for rent for our place. But I thought we could do it but I forgot about books so that's almost another $200. And what has really put me in a funk about the whole thing is that I forgot to pay the Cable and cell phone bill. So what I just spent on school, for an 8 week session, could have paid both of those bills and still had some left over.

I think the other reason this is really bumming me out is that hubby hurt his back earlier this week and is having a hard time walking let along working and so far there is nothing new coming in. (Oh I forgot to mention that I placed an ad in one of the papers for a month so that should help some) But wait there's one more. Murphy's Law says all bad things come in three's. I am sick. Have been since Friday morning. I was hoping that it was just allergies and I could still go to "work" but when I went to bed on Thurs., at 5pm mind you, I was just feeling so icky. And I am one of those people that doesn't like to be around people when I am stuffy, hot, icky, uncomfortable, etc. I woke up with a runny nose, slight fever, and coughing. I was not going to be around those kids and make any of them sick so I took Savie to school and laid down trying to sleep (see this post to find out why) and then went back to get her. I still felt icky and the weather wasn't helping with that at all.


For the past 5 days we have been under a windy advisory which means that the wind can get up to 50 MPH. Joy right? Isn't that a tornado in some areas? I thought we got off lucky and there was no wind damage to our house at all but that is not the case. True this is an old mobile home and there are lots of things that need to be fixed but the only thing that broke off was a cheap plastic fake window shutter (if you really want to see a picture let me know). That's it, which is pretty good considering that the dance studio lost some windows (up to high for the kids to hurt themselves thank goodness), a church down the street had a tree fall on top of them, and a couple of down fences. It was just a bad storm to be in ans being sick at the same time does not help any ones mood.

So I am sitting here trying not to cry because I can't go to school this session, I'm sick and the weather is crappy.

sunday scribbings # 110

Forgive me if it takes awhile to read this, I'm trying to type with a bad hand.


The telephone. It's a great invention. i don't know what I would do without it. There's so many good and bad things about it that it's hard to pick one moment in time that is just the moment for me.

There was the call i made to my father telling him about my boyfriend (at the time), telling him him his (they are the same age by the way). Or maybe it was the phone call telling my family that i was pregnant. That was a call i know my mother was waiting for. True she has four grand kids already but i am still her daughter. doesn't every mother want that for her daughter? to experience the ups and downs of being pregnant? the labor? and then holding that little bundle of joy?

those are the good phone calls, for me anyways. but there are a few that i am not looking forward to. there's the call, that will be coming, telling me that my grandmother (my last grandparent by the way) has passed. i know that it is coming but i also know that when it comes i will not be ready. i will drop the phone, i will cry and not be able to tell my daughter "what is wrong with mommy".

Because of this, i think, it's one of the reasons that i answer the phone "someone better be in the hurt" when my phone rings at odd hours of the day/night.

It's D-day

I am just hours away from D-day. Well two of them. First I am "working" all alone at Sam's tomorrow. It will be just me, Savie and at least 3 other kids. I will also be there Mon and Tues by myself. I think I will be ok, I have been there for going on 3 weeks now and feel comfortable being there and taking care of the kids. I am mentally making myself ok with this. Wish me luck.

The second thing, and not even scary to me, is having my hand taken care of. I have finally decided that I will just have it taken out. I'm trying to plan my weekend (Farmer's Market, dinner, etc) but it's hard since I don't know what to expect. You know how long before I can use my hand, how much is it going to hurt, stuff like that. But I think it will be ok. I need to go to bed and be ready for Friday for the kids!!!!

BLINDSIDED

I have been blindsided. I love being on my computer. I love looking things up, hopping around the different blogs, adding pictures. But I think I will have to stop for awhile.

A couple of days ago I noticed a lump on the back of my left hand but didn't think much of since it didn't hurt. But then this morning I reached for something and had shooting pain in the hand. I almost dropped a pen. I figured that by the time I went back to pick up Savie from school that it would be ok but that wasn't the case. I took us to the ER to get it looked at and it turns out that I have a Ganglion Cyst on my left hand. I still have an appt. tomorrow so hopefully we will know something. Keep your fingers crossed.

Bad news......update

Well it's almost 10:30pm here and I've watched the last of the news. I can't see the fire anymore from my house (I don't know if that's a good thing or not) but at least the wind has died down. It was pretty windy this afternoon but it's suppose to dye down to about 5-10 MPH. Here are a few pictures that I took from my house (you can click on them to make them HUGE)


The news said it was up to 500 acres and people have been evacuated from the area. It's not a good night here.